okay, so back in highschool I used to write poetry/songs for local bands, but pretty much stopped after I left for college. I managed to find some of my old ones and decided to share with anyone that wants to read. Just a fair warning @_@ sum of it sounds pretty dark/fukd up ^^
My writing tends to be very vivid and dark because at the time I liked to make sure the reader could picture what was being said.
Untitled Sonnet 1:I was born and raised as a creature from Nite
Tortured and scared from their terrible deed
Taught never to see the light of the day
I never thought that this would be in spite
Who would of thought that I want this one greed
Love...love is what desire to my heart
Ripped and savaged from their poor woeful souls
I was born pitiful and wretched from site
How could the world ever be in so much need?
Hasn't our people suffered from our disfigurance?
I guessed that we might need help from smite
Bent, contorted and rugged, we still see the seed
That will bring us our new but still warped life
Let's just hope that all of us might still pray
Today, today is just another grieved day
That is just filled with languishing full people
I Miss You Everyday that I see your gone.
Busy but playing in life
working at hard to make a life we both try
struggle at times we might
but no matter what we always pull threw holding hands
No one can describe how much I miss you when your not here
I miss you everyday
No one will steal you away so you cant be with me here
I miss you everyday
I love you
People can say that your the little voice inside my head
I will agree with that
Your my guardian angel
The one I trust the most with life
Doesn't matter how badly we are away from one another
we will always long for each others touch in the end
such a happy ending it will be
No one can describe how much I miss you when your not here
I miss you everyday
No one will steal you away so you can't be with me here
I miss you everyday
I love you
A end will never become between us
we will keep on growing and living like the unfortunate weeds
Growing together, growing up its what we do
Living side by side like theres no one else
I love you and you love me
an equal cycle between our souls
Our eyes will meet again
so soon it seems being away was only a flash in the back of our minds
Our hands will be in touch and our lips will meet
I don't know when this will be
but it will feel so incredible that it must be forever
I love you forever and ever
für immer und immer
No one can describe how much I miss you when your not here
I miss you everyday
No one will steal you away so you can't be with me here
I miss you everyday
I love you
Medication wont help
For this is love sick madness
Never or never will their be a perfect situation like this
Come once again into my arms and let us be
living life to our fullest
at least we are happy
unlike all the other fools in life had never figured out
we pray for their sake
but ours is saved from birth
one more medication will help this all
give them all they need for they are grieved
We will watch over them
because we are their guardian angels
our wings touch and our fingers grasps each other
I miss you everyday babe
because i love you to the fullest
This winter will seem to last for an eternity
The cold has crept deep inside of me
[whisper:: fuyu]
choking my poor heart
slowly tightening more and more
zetsumei
saikoro
zetsumei!!
Please bring faith to me
[whisper:: shinpou]
Please take away my fear
[whisper:: osore]
flowing past all of these years
fallowing you all the way
call apon and uprising against the evening sun
united we can be
grasp that ribbon of which you see flapping in the wind
and tie it tightly around till theres no air left
Oh please let my tears fall silently
tegome
zetsumei
tegome!!
How did this happen again?
Why did this happen to me?
Answering my questions with a sigh
answering me with a frown
[whisper:: fukeiki]
what is happening to me?
is there something wrong?
Let this be the spring afterwards
[whisper:: hazumi]
remembering the softly scented flowers
the gentle rain fallowing to and to
bringing life
bring me life
[whisper:: itonami]
[fainter whisper:: itonami]
Oh please let my tears fall silently
tegome
tegome
tegome
How did this happen again?
Why did this happen to me?
Let the opera sing for me
let the bloody roses scream for me
let the silence of the night cry for me
[kyo]
[kyo]
take my hand and hold it one last time
one last time to say good bye
one last time to leave this all behind
the horrible monster i found in life
is something i dont want to live with
tegome...
tegome.....
tegome is my past.
Wrote this one when I had found out to have arthritis in my teens, and it was greatly affected by the cold where I grew up at
but once I left for college I made sure to move to where its warm all the time so it doesnt really affect me anymore ^^
Pale white, the skin is withering away, bones are showing
All the nails chipped and busted off
All because of pain
All because Im sick
Watch as they are thrusted and drowned in salty waters
Hopeing that their is still life left in them
Bubbles wonder up to the top of the water
mocking the poor helpless pieces of flesh
laughing at the pittyless things
Once reaching the top making their laughters louder
making sure that I can here them
You don't need to tell me that my hands have become worthless
falling into pieces slowly day by day
turning more dead than the winter nights
the flesh is still withering away
falling to the bottom of the bowl and floating back to the top
swirling around the bubbles of the salty water
trying to find the hope that might be still left
Cracked and Broken, withering and sulking
falling to a million pieces just deing away
My hands have been over come with this desiese
Like a machine running out of power
My hands cant make the mysteries strokes with a paintbrush on canvas
My hands cant make those erie sounds on my violen
making the wonderful songs that I used to be able to play
falling to lifeless broken machines
Everytime these fleshen things touch another life bringer it dies
slowly freezing up and unable to take
pulling out of the water and letting them hang over the salted tainted liquid
droplets sliding down the curves and the swollen cracks
creating a thousand rivers and streams on just my two hands
as they turn over the rivers move with them
somewhat creating a little world of their own
the water drys and all thats left is the drying salt on the bear bones that survived
Flesh and muscles have finally withered away leaving me with this
people flee as they approach to shake my hand
they are saden with loosing all life
loosing all the hope of ever living
Falling into ashes and swept away with the gentle breeze
Bones showing greatly, dried salt flaking away from them
All the bones chipped and cracked
All because of pain
All because Im sick
Cracked and Broken, withering and sulking
falling to a million pieces just deing away
My hands have been over come with this desiese
Like a machine running out of power
My hands cant make the mysteries strokes with a paintbrush on canvas
My hands cant make those erie sounds on my violen
making the wonderful songs that I used to be able to play
falling to lifeless broken machines
eyes closely intended on the boots
watching as they slowly are tightened and tied.
deep black leather with zippers on the sides
leather extending all the way up to the thigh
The shadow figure quickly standing up right
a glance is exchanged at me
their eyes pierce right throught me
the soft lips of the shadow figure open
acting as though getting ready to speak
Silence is than fallowed and time now frozen
the hand reflexes and a music box is set
upon the palm of this stranger
closely they open the little box
a dancer is set in the center
slowly turning round and round
the melody breaks the silence
as the little dancer turns
Darkness overflows my vision,
my feelings, my appearance, and body
I jerk my head upright and see myself standing before me
the shadow figure is standing in front of myself.
but than who am I?
I notice than that I am spinning round and round
This must be one of those times
where nothing is good
and all I want to do is sleep
dont talk to me
dont look at me
all I want to do is sleep
let sleep embrase me
let it take me away
so I wont be lonely no more
You wish I was there
and I wish I was too
how could this gentle song play
so late into the night
blasting away over playing the soft crickets
watch them play their fiddles and strings
let them play louder and louder
they cannot over play this song of sleep
Let my sleep embrase me so I cannot be lonely
Let it be beside me through the night
I can feel sleep wrap its arms around me
so I can fall into this sickening slumber
One that I cannot be woken from again
never never again
I just want to be left alone
but let me sleep along side you
so I wont be lonely during the night
The darkest and silent night
cannot be without you
For tomarrow a new day begins
a new life is born
tonight I shall die again
and the night will take me away
Tonight, its hard enough to stand
I wish to be strong
to fight off these tears...
but I have been beaten, torned, broken, and tortured
so these tears
will fall into the stary night
Tonight I need my only hero
Ride apon into the dark my knight in shiny armor
The steed that is brute and blunt
that you shall ride tonight
taking up for what you stand for
you wish to save me from this lonely night
Tomarrow will be day sha voo
and so will be the days afterwards
I miss your gentle hand
grasping mine when saving me
to see you again
why cant the world just stop in time
So that we can be forever
Tonight, its hard enough to stand
I wish to be strong
to fight off these tears...
but I have been beaten, torned, broken and tortured
so these tears
will fall into the stary night
These nights of these endless hours
here with you is a longing wish
Tonight will be frozen in time
so that none of us will die
You sit here with your dead lover...
they cant be reborn
without emotions that are unbroken
or nonbeaten
Tonight, it was hard enough to stand
I wish I was strong enough
to fight off these tears...
But I died along side my emotions
so these tears and blood
will fall into the stary night
drenching my hero
my knight in shiny armor
my one and only lover
for they shed their tears
all over my dead soul
wishing I could be reborn again.
Shes done this so many times
Againa and again
She broke you
and tore you
spit on you
poured her own salt in your wounds
and burried you in her grave.
Questioning, wondering, lost and confused
depression sinking in, one word repeating itself
Why did she run away
why did she hurt you
please just recover
recover from her wonds
clear the salt and dirt away
your questions cannot be answer now
your on the edge
falling falling falling on the city
the city we all live in
splattering your soul on the pavement
dont loose your hope
dont give up hope
your a wonderful person
incredible, talentive, mysterious
again and again
shes broke you
and tore you
spit on you
poured her own salt in your wounds
and burried you in her grave
questioning, wondering, lost and confused
depression sinking in, one word repeating itself
ask her
ask her why
why she was hurting you
if she still loves you.
she'll answer back
so you dont have to show your tears
wipe all the wounds away
stand up on your feet
and look to the sky
a new day sets in
you take the quiet view
everything you have done up till now seemed pointless
because shes not here
pick this up
and play us our sad tune
the tune everyone lives by just once
so much can show
so much been lost
but we start a new life.
they left you with no answers
this is the new begining
sing your heart out
play your heart out
we all have our game overs
so we gotta restart sometime
step off the horse
and get back on it
ride throught he fields
as you see the beauty of life
it see its own freedom
maybe we are free now
a new begining
a new ending
we have been waiting so long
to start over again
theres nothing we can do now but live
try to live happy
maybe it will be better this time around
you never know.
Someone snap me out of this trance
I am falling again
I need you
I need someone
Please just help me
Make this horible world just go away
I dont need it anymore
or anyway
All I can say
Is that Im falling
Falling again
Falling away
I need someone
I need you
How could you do that
Destroying my world
Destroying their world
You had taken everything away
Hideing everything away
Destroying yourself
Destroying us
Now all we do is fight
Never to be whole again
And it was all your fault
Why couldnt you have seen that
Your so blind
How could you do that
Destroying my world
Destorying their world
You had taken everything away
Hideing everything away
I have to watch as you hurt them
hurt me
hurt yourself
Why are you doing this
What kind of monster are you turning into
Will someone snap me out of this trance
I am still falling
My thoughts are scattering
My limbs are numb
My heart is broken
How could you do this
Destroyed my world
Destroyed their world
You took everything away
And hid it away
for your self
selfish
cruel
greedy
cold hearted
theres no heart left in you
where did it go over the years
you destroyed us
destroyed what we had...
...we were a family
the key to life is finding life itself
thus emotion will be found only in the deepest of waters
only to find that the lily that grows upon the water is the emotion itself
anything can be nothing and nothing can be anything its only up to that person to decide
People can chose their future but not their past
We live hard and long, broken and deceived
But no matter how much sadness comes we will find
That there is people out there that love you
don’t give your life up
Blooming upon the water of life
Emotion will bring you down or put you up to joy
When the lily shrivels up and dies
You have given up…
How do people know what love is?
I believe that a very small hand full do.
maybe people do know what love really is.
but the question is do they understand it?
no one really understands it.
its just a simple feeling right?
i believe that it is more than just a feeling.
its to complicated for us to grasp.
maybe thats the whole point.
i believe that i really am begining to understand this word "love"
it really is complicated as i mention before.
but if this wasnt love than what is it?
if people really understand love...
than why were they against my love?
they had punished me to be able to love.
im dieing on the inside from this
the fact that people cannot understand
maybe it was ment for them to not understand.
but i believe that my love is real.
it really astonishes me sometimes
even in the worst of times
if i just think of my love
than everything is alright again
yes i am dieing
only because im not allow to love.
but soon people will understand
and to that i am greatful
love will live even more be joyful and pleased than
the rest of people and love.
but someday i will spread this so people will understand
that love is more than just a feeling
that love is a living thing
that love is something that all of us can grasp.
love is part of our life
that is what i believe.
Lusting our love
had only got us so far
So deep together we grew
like the never ending story
Stronger and stronger
Longer and longer
straining to be together
the words only grew larger
Take me my pretty
Take me to paradise
Take me to the never ending story
Lusting our relation
realitivty has been grasping once again
pulling us into its glareing eyes
strolling into the darkness of them
deeper and deeper
further and further
away from the light
away from life
take me my pretty
take me to paradise
take me to the never ending story
You had pulled me into the darkness
away from everything that had seem to punish me
stealing me away
taking me away
grasping your hand
its as cold as ice
lusting our love
this could only be ours
our lusting love.
What am I waiting for?
For you to come knocking on my door?
Why am I pacing so?
Just for you to come and save me?
From my simple sanity
A never ending path that you can not distract me from.
Come craw under my magnifying glass
And let me get a closer look at you.
You had thought that I am still alive
But you only see me as your past rejoice.
I'm living here in your past just as you had remembered
I died and you never knew
Because you had been to busy to notice
I stay here pacing as you sit there watching tv.
Why don’t you come save me?
Save me from this simple sanity.
I need you, but you keep living
And I'm stuck here in this past world of ours
Save me from this simple sanity
I die everyday just waiting for you
I’m just so lonely without you
Your killing me your killing me
Why am I waiting?
For you to come knocking at my door?
Why am I still pacing so?
Just for you to come save me?
From my simple sanity
This simple sanity?
That you had left me in.
I know i had a very well written [horror]version of the little red riding hood that pretty much my teacher refused to finish reading it cuz it terrified her so much D: it was fukd up but was really good she said.
