[shadow=orange,left] Yes, off topic from EPW. No, not completely pointless. There's always something to think about, even during game play .... just sort of auto- pilot into outer space, mentally. But I wonder, too ...Have YOU ever ... :* Been so ticked off .. all you end up doing is collapsing into a sobbing fit ...?* Been so lost on what your next move during a struggle might be, that you hate yourself for being afraid of making a bad choice..?* Just wanted to be alone with music, pictures, Tv, silence, darkness- anything- just alone, allowing that calm to suffuse within you until you just lose it ... and break everything and anything in sight, even living...? Anyway ... it's like life keeps trying to kick you when you haven't even regained your ground after the last few beatings ... I know... Months ago (fairly recently), my dad walked out of my life. I was everything to him. Then he allowed terrible rumors to tear that apart, so he did so to me by thinking I'm not even his... Spent weeks still trying to fall asleep with tears blurring the images around a dark, cold room ... I have a job and a car, finally. But, today I found out that I have a leak in my power steering of some sort, not a light one either ... and that part costs a COUPLE hundred dollars ... dear fricken god ... Hours at work getting cut + needs to pay car insurance + still making payments on the car itself + gas money + Needs a new hose/keep buying bottles and letting the **** car leak so I don't damage it permanently .. + car tabs need to be bought this month = Wow ... am I ever screwed ... and there's nothing that can be done, really ... maybe save up ramen so I can eat every other day ... hah. It's nice living with a mother who beat the crap out of me, too, until I was old enough to defend myself. I guess my family kind of sucks ... except my aunts and cousins [shadow=orange,left] What I'd like, is to allow people to enjoy being able to cry and not feel less human, it actually comes with the territory. For as seldom as I post, I do really hope people can get something out of this thread when they need somewhere to go to after fighting off those demons that threatened to whisk off their sanity into a blood red sunset ... and not have to worry about this thread being locked, as it has happened many times to other threads I've seen. The following is for people who kept taking the beatings ... and still stand, body bruised and torn, and share with others their wisdom and love- because they know better than anyone how it feels to be "alone".[shadow=orange,left] Due to my ... situation ... I just ... can't watch this for long ...Linkin Park - Castle of Glass {in my opinion, amazing. Very fitting} [shadow=orange,left] Besides Tomb Raider, one of the BEST scenes that also fits this thread content from my other favorite game. Karin's words are truly inspiring <3[shadow=orange,left] This is good for now. Post anything else related to this that you wish. To others who don't really perceive the true meaning of this thread ... please at least try to be kind and ignore all this if it is not your cup of tea. I'd hate for something that was meant to bring people together and help us grow get locked ... simple as that. But that's up to you ... I need to log off, finish piecing myself back together ... and continue working on Malon's pretty avatar... I look forward to seeing everybody next login time. Thank you for you time. ~ Love, Dragon Talon.