Mikau's Decaffeinated Thoughts [updated today! yay.]

[Mitochondria]

Interesting but so much to read

[EricaMurcas]

I think you and I are twins: The only difference was that I was bullied in High School, which is when, incidentally, I got into most fights. Not because someone was picking on me, someone was picking on someone I cared for. And, like you, I had my stay in a mental institution; I often found myself being a counselor/friend to most of the patients, making them laugh and such. I also asked for writing implements. Luckily, I got a pencil and paper and just started to draw. I hid most of my drawing, because I figured they'd make me stay longer. (They were bloody and graphic, not something you want to show someone in the field of psychology, but nonetheless it brought comfort to me. Like you, also, I was teased for being over-weight and, again, writing saved my life, especially after my best friend at the time died in a car accident, then I wrote a lot, because if I didn't, I don't know what would have became of me. Another good look into the life of my "twin". XD

[ܣᏁᎧᏉܣ]

I write things.  Let's delve further into my ***ed-up mind and let me tell you abut how writing became my passion.

Throughout elementary school and junior high, I was bullied.  I was always a heavy girl, and back then, quiet. You may have considered me a ticking time bomb in some cases, because holy shit if I got mad...

But due to my (usually) quiet nature, coupled with my weight issues, I was bullied.  Think of any negative thing you can call a fat kid and I was called that.  Fighting back wasn't an option, and the schools did nothing.  In fact, a teacher also got in on the "fun" while physically abusing me.  I dreaded going to school every day. 

In junior high school it was no better.  I kept to myself, and they still pointed and laughed.  I have a fond memory of my teacher, Ms. A (that is what we called her, because her last name was a bitch to pronounce for a bunch of 7th graders) giving a group assignment. 

Did I get into a group? No.

I don't think she even bothered asking why.

But I did the project by my lonesome.  It was to write a holiday skit.  So I did just that.  It was a holiday mystery skit.  I don't remember exactly the premise of it all, but the main character was Detective St. Ides and her assistant was Minnie.  Anyway, I got an A on it, and she pulled me aside and told me how much she enjoyed my project and that I should keep writing because I'm an excellent writer.

That was possibly the best thing I heard in my life, and it gave me a confidence boost despite being drug through the mud by my peers. 

The bullying didn't stop until I went to high school, but I never stopped writing since then.  I wrote plays, poetry, prose, articles...anything I felt like putting on paper, I did.  When I had my breakdown 9 years ago, the one thing I asked for was a pen and my notebook.  Due to hospital regulations, I couldn't have a pen, but I had a green (ew) crayon.  I wrote lyrics.  Sometimes I found myself singing them in the shower.

While I don't have a shit ton of time to do much pleasure writing anymore, I still find some time to do so.  This section here is one of those pieces.  I even dabbled in writing novels. Dysfunction is the novel I'm writing (sorta).  I'm also a blogger. 

Writing, along with gaming, saved my life.

[shadow=red,left]We have a quite the same life story.. [/shadow]

[Darunia ஜ]

[shadow=red,left]We have a quite the same life story.. [/shadow]

Sharing stuff like this actually makes me feel better due to comments like yours and Murcas'.  It makes me feel like I'm not alone in this.  My mom still hasn't acknowledged the fact that this doesn't go away overnight, and it's a battle that's been going on for so long.

What makes the battle a little easier now is having a support system like friends and my in-laws.

I added another entry by the way.  Just fair warning, if you are easily grossed out, don't eat while reading.

Also for those who say it's long: it's a lot to take in at once.  So try not to. LOL.  I tend to get long-winded at times and once I have an idea of what I want to write about, it's hard for me to stop.

[ᴰᴱᴬᴰ†]

fkcicing POOOOOOOOP loooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooool poooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooop

poooooooooop one was hilarious

poooooooooooooooop

[Darunia ஜ]

fkcicing POOOOOOOOP loooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooool poooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooop

poooooooooop one was hilarious

poooooooooooooooop

Wrote that one with you in mind.

[ᴰᴱᴬᴰ†]

Wrote that one with you in mind.

LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL pooop is mine woman! I always wrote about POO

I have a POO fetish

I used to be a member of one mmo forum and all I did there was writing topics about POO

[Darunia ஜ]

LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL pooop is mine woman! I always wrote about POO

I have a POO fetish

I used to be a member of one mmo forum and all I did there was writing topics about POO

Well I don't have a poop fetish, but when you have kids, it comes with the territory, so the conversation ends up going there a couple of times, especially for potty training tots.

[Drive]

I enjoyed reading this.
I didn`t get bullied throught highschool so i can`t relate,but~
Most of the "bullies" probably have issues of their own,so they want to make other people feel worse then them.
It was very bad on the feacher's part to just ignore or make your situation even worse.
Sadly there still are teacher's like that.

[Angelica]

I suppose it could be worse...she could've thought it was a piece of chocolate.

OH GOD NO LOL
You are really talented, I enjoyed reading.

[Maxime]

enjoyed reading 

[Moogle]

Nice read i enjoyed it xD

[Darunia ஜ]

I enjoyed reading this.
I didn`t get bullied throught highschool so i can`t relate,but~
Most of the "bullies" probably have issues of their own,so they want to make other people feel worse then them.
It was very bad on the feacher's part to just ignore or make your situation even worse.
Sadly there still are teacher's like that.

I agree. 

I lucked out, and the bullying did end when I went into high school.  But it took several years for it to happen, and I wasn't even sure if high school would've been any different. 

The reason why the teachers ignored it is because there was one in particular who actually joined in on the bullying.

I could've died about 4-5 times in just elementary school alone due to bullying.

OH GOD NO LOL
You are really talented, I enjoyed reading.

LOL I'm lucky that she has a better sense of scent than I do, and if something smells like shit, she won't put it in her mouth.

And thanks yall

[Darunia ஜ]

Managed to get one in.  Gonna be a busy few days here.

[♒]

Best story ever. '-'